Life, or something like that.

Life. It is ever evolving.

After losing my job a few years ago, due to a buyout of my company, I have been feeling like I have been floating, directionless. It is a feeling I am very familiar with. I never seemed to know what to do or where to go in my life. I just “existed”.

It seems I have been gaining clarity. It has been coming together, albeit slowly, over the past few years. It’s weird and hard to explain.

I don’t even know remember how it all started. I somehow found some random blog on the internet about living in the Mojave desert in Southern California. It was interesting, and led me into the rabbit hole. One blog led to another blog, to another, etc. I started researching this area, and much to my surprise, it felt familiar – even though I have never been there in my life. I constantly feel a pull from this place. At first it was slight. It has been getting stronger. Now, it is reaching a fever pitch. I feel I belong there.

And I don’t know why.


Well, hello! Again!!

Where the hell have you been?


Why haven’t you posted?

I’ve not had anything to say.

Well, alrighty then.

Are blogs even cool anymore?  Is anything I do cool?

Fair enough.

So much time has passed and a lot has happened.  I may write about it later, or maybe not.  I have been thinking about this blog, and wondering what to do with it.  I have some ideas.  Changes, they are a’coming.

Stay tuned…

Trump 2016?

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Forget Democrat and Republican.  Trump terrifies me.  I joined the group above, “Hillary Clinton Revolution”.  It is a group run by a bunch of Trump supporters.

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If you feel your candidate is the best one for the job, why do you need to create a Facebook group and troll all of the supporters for your choice?  I don’t get it.Screen Shot 2016-09-30 at 12.14.14 AM.png

Admittedly, I did engage, a little bit.  Screen Shot 2016-09-30 at 12.16.15 AM.png

What I don’t get is, if you feel your candidate is the best, why do you have to troll under false pretenses?

I’m not going to lie or hide the fact that I support Hillary.  Whether you agree with me or not is not the point, why create a Facebook page for Hillary when it is, in fact, for Trump?  Seriously, what the fuck?  If your candidate is superior, shouldn’t that speak on it’s own.  Am I missing something?

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After leaving the group and reporting it to Facebook (I know), I’m STILL getting notifications from these asshats.  WHAT…THE..FUCK?

I don’t know.  Maybe I am to old for this shit.

My point is, whether or not you are for Trump or Hillary, shouldn’t your candidate stand on their own merit?  Why create a fake Facebook group bashing the other?  I just don’t get it.

This is just my zero dark thirty two cents worth.  Clearly, based on all of this, I guess it is easy to see who I support.  However, I am not going to participate in a group that fakes who it is really for.

This, I guess is just my two cents worth.  Thanks for reading.

Christmas is…coming?


Today was a beautiful, albeit a VERY hot September day.  A 93 degree hot September day.  (I live in Pennsylvania!).

I became bored and wanted to get out of the house and do something.  I thought “Hey, let’s go to Big Lots” as I needed some things.  “Good idea”, my little brain agreed.

I hopped into my car, with the a/c on full blast and drove to my local, dimly lit Big Lots.  Don’t get me wrong, I love Big Lots.  You can find lots of stuff there for cheap – nobody, and I mean NOBODY sells Tide for less.

While meandering through the aisles, what to my wondering eyes should appear?  Christmas decorations.  Wait, what?


It’s not even technically mid-September.  Can’t we get through Halloween first?  Back in the stone age, when I was a youngin’, Christmas stuff didn’t come out until around Thanksgiving.  What happened?  This a trend that I don’t like.  (I realize that this is an ongoing trend, but I can barely find Halloween stuff out yet, but I digress…).


I’m not going to lie, it did kind of excite me.  Christmas is my second favorite holiday, after Halloween.  But, I am just not ready for it.



Holy shit!

On Friday, September 2, 2016, I turned 43!  Where the hell did the time go?  It seems like I just turned 21.

I kinda feel lost in this new digital world.  Snapchat, Vine, Instagram; etc.  This stuff didn’t exist when I was the targeted age of those apps.  I had AOL.  Yay!

I started going online in 1993.  With a dial up modem.  28.8 Kbs!  Oh baby!  I hoped I didn’t get a speeding ticket on the Information Super Highway!  It also included 3 months of Prodigy!  Woo hoo!  Prodigy was boring, by the way.

My online life changed when I got an AOL disk in a magazine I purchased that included 1 month of free AOL!  (AOL, in case you don’t know is America On Line).

AOL was cool.  The chat rooms!  I spent A LOT of time in them.  I mean A LOT.  I met my first boyfriend in a chat room there.  It was in the SouthJerseym4m (I think) room.  My screen-name was something like SJGUY609 and his was something like SJDUDE609.  I messaged him.  I meant for it to be nothing more than a hookup, but it turned into a 4 year relationship.  This was 1995.  We are still friends to this day.

In this modern digital age, do things like this happen?  Grindr, Jack’d, Scruff, Tinder.  In my time we had the aforementioned AOL and

Today, I found out that is no more.  It changed formats on August 1st.  I got no emails stating there would be a change.  All of my friends, pictures, chats; etc, gone.  I have been a member since either 1998 or 1999.  It was the original Grindr.  I met a lot of people on there, some turned out to be long term friends and I had a few relationships from that site.  I’m sad to see it is gone.

The wheel of time marches on.  Either you keep up or get left behind.  I am fairly abreast on new tech as well as trends, but sometimes I long for the old days.  Whatever happened to chat rooms?  I guess another casualty of emerging tech.  If I want to meet new people, I need to use Grindr, Jack’d and Scruff.  But that isn’t good for finding people who just want to talk all around the country or world.

How about you?  Do you miss the simplicity of the old days?  Do you think it is better today?  Tell me what you think!


I’m back!

It has been forever and a day since I made my last post.  Do people even blog anymore?

I have missed this outlet.  I am thinking about doing a reboot, perhaps a journal.  Then again, do I really want my deepest thoughts and emotions out on the internet?  Didn’t stop me before.

I have always found writing cathartic, even though I am not particularly good at it.  Oh well.

Here is to (hopefully) Chaotic Bliss 2.0!

My brain hurts


I finally get a moment where I don’t have to do anything.  Other than being bored, I’m not sure what to do with myself.  So, I have decided to go to Starbucks.  I spend entirely too much time (and money) here.

School is going well.  It  is proving to be a wee bit harder than I anticipated.  I was not counting on the amount of math involved.  Math is not my strong suit.  Not even close.  This makes more poor little brain hurt.  I’m sure there must be smoke coming out of my ears.

And these math problems don’t make sense to me.  They don’t make sense to anyone else I have shown them to. Questions such as “A monthly mortgage payment is $980.00 and the balance of the mortgage is $118,000 payable at an interest rate of 6.5%.  How much of the next mortgage payment will be applied towards the reduction of principle?”.

Why not call the mortgage company and ask like a normal person?

There are a lot of these types of questions.

I asked a friend of mine who is a Realtor about the math.  She told me that math is used all that much in the real world.  She said that there are other ways to find out the information and that some of it changes on a  daily basis.

Just more frustration for me.  Grrr.

End of rant.