It finally hit me. I have had so much going on since the breakup, with my mind running in a million different directions that I haven’t really had the time to just stop and think.
Today, I woke up as usual. Had coffee. Chatted online. Started as a normal day. I decided to go to Starbucks and have some coffee.
It hit me on my way here. The song “Who Knew” by P!nk came on the radio and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I just broke down and started crying. I felt like someone punched me.
All at once, I felt a great sense of loss, sadness, emptyness. It was almost like I had been in a fog the past few days and suddenly it lifted. A flood of emotions.
So, I sit here in Starbucks trying to keep it together. Trying to tune out the music that is playing. Every song, right now, is a sad song. It seems to be either about someone singing about the love of their live or about losing the love of their life.
Would I call him the love of my life? No. But, I did love him.